LUNCH TALES: SUELLEN launches !

Embracing powerful issues

As I mostly write by the seat of my pants, how my stories evolve often surprises me. I guess that’s the idea. Robert Frost said it best: “No tears in the writer, no tears in the reader. No surprise in the writer, no surprise in the reader.”

Here is what some of my early readers have said about Lunch Tales: Suellen:

Tough to put down.

A story about survival at its core.

A beautiful example of the painful yet exhilarating path to self-love.

Powerful on many levels . . . and an awesome ending!

A feel-good romance that mirrors real-life complexities.

Savvy women share a camaraderie reminiscent of the appealing Sex and the City quartet.

A tender love story sprinkled with a bit of angst.

Suellen and the ‘ladies who lunch’ are the work family everyone wishes she had.

Will have you craving a lunch date with your besties.

A compelling story of resilience and the transformative power of love and friendship.

Suellen’s heartfelt journey will touch your heart.

Sample first chapter

I refuse to die today. A gulp catches in my throat, and I remind myself that breathing is imperative to staying alive. I clutch the thick lap bar with a death grip; white knuckles stiffening with strain as a trail of screams detonate from the back of my throat, ear-piercing shrieks that sound as if they belong to someone else. A plummet and twist whip my body from weightlessness to heaviness in just under four terrifying seconds, a dizzying array of visuals catching up to my mind’s eye.

Steve flings his dark, wind-whipped hair from his eyes and smirks. “And that’s why they call it the rocket.”

I step out of the orange train car—the color of Jack-o-lanterns—dazed, heart decelerating, and breathe out one long sigh of relief as soon as my feet touch the earth.

“Let’s go again.” I hear him say, even as my brain tries not to let it in.

My stupor waning, I stare into his eyes with an intensity I want to be certain he sees. “Are you fucking kidding me?”

Steve squints in response. He’s not kidding. When’s Steve ever kidding?

“I drove sixty miles so you could get your adrenaline rush. That’s all I agreed to,” I say. We would have to live one hour from the tallest, scariest roller coaster in the world, fastest in North America. “That’s what your coaster enthusiasts group’s for.”

Steve didn’t hear a word I said. He’s walking backward, his eyes riveted on Kingda Ka. We go over to sit on a bench with a panoramic view of the king of all roller coasters and I pass Steve a water bottle. “So . . . was it everything you hoped it’d be?”​

He picks up on my sarcasm. “No, Suellen. Had you helped me ‘get off’ while we were up there, now that would have been somethin’.”

Oh Suellen . . . Suellen, when did dangerous and exciting turn into such irony?

“If only I hadn’t wasted seconds screaming my head off. How clumsy of me.” If only I hadn’t wasted ten months in an on-again, off-again relationship. It’s a toxic cycle – breaking up, going back for more. Dependable familiarity, thrilling uncertainty.

Steve takes a deep slug of water. “You need to work on your multitasking skills, Babe.”

I roll my eyes. This is how it goes with us, the back and forth. Which one of us will top the other? It’s getting old.

It’s a beautiful, clear September day. The sky is crystal blue. My mother told me it was a day like this on the fateful date of 9/11, bright and perfect. It’s strange how I’m thinking about this right now. I was young when that happened, but I imagine it’s embedded in north easterners how tranquility can turn into calamity with almost no warning.

I didn’t go into a relationship with Steve thinking it had long-term prospects. I’m not an idealist. We are fighting more, a consequence to living on the wild side of life, I guess. What I once thought exciting about him infuriates me now. But it’s his birthday this week and I’m a sucker for birthdays. I promised I’d celebrate it with him as he saw fit, although I may have had a couple of drinks in me at the time I said it. Steve’s wild side is what attracted me in the first place, the beautiful bad boy I couldn’t resist.​

I wish I had.

Lately, even my short-term expectations leave me feeling deflated. While I consider Steve’s autonomy a strength, he runs hot and cold so often I never know which I’m with until it’s too late.

“Look at that,” Steve says. “Those lucky bastards.” A green train car does a rollback on the coaster, giving its riders an extra hydraulic launch.

I can’t understand Steve’s obsession with outrageous adventures, one more thrill-seeking than the next. Don’t get me wrong. I can keep up with the best of them. Or used to anyway. Between my brother and me, I was the daring one growing up. My twin was cautious and analytical. I was spontaneous, the risk-taker. Simon hated to get dirty; I was the textbook tomboy. But Steve’s fixation on danger is something different. In a maniacal way, death-defiance powers him up. It’s like a drug to him.

“Can we go now?” I say, trying to contain a sigh.

Steve stands up from the bench. I still marvel at his muscular twenty-nine-year-old body, his strong stubble-haired chin, beguiling blue eyes. I have seen them go from a dark iridescent blue to a murky gray within seconds, illuminating the unstable man within. What will you look like ten years from now, Steve? After years of too much drinking and too much anger?

We exit the Six Flags park jungle scene. “I hope you’re satisfied,” I say.

“Nah. We still have to go bungee jumping.”

“I’m never going bungee jumping.” I cross my arms over my chest. “That’s a solid no.”

“Let’s stop somewhere for dinner,” he says.

Dinner that consists of several drinks, but I’m driving. “Sure.”

I first met Steve Holt a year ago when he pulled me over for speeding. I couldn’t have been doing more than ten miles over the speed limit, but Officer Holt begged to disagree. His eyes fell to my lap, and I flushed as I looked down at my bare legs under a short skirt. I squeezed my thighs together. He continued writing me a ticket despite my protests, tearing it off with a flourish. “Thanks,” I grumbled. An impervious crooked smile met my frustrated one. I threw the ticket onto the passenger seat and didn’t look at it until days later when I noticed it wasn’t a ticket at all. It was a page torn from the back of his ticket book. On it he had written, “Call me” with his cell phone number.

I didn’t call.

Several weeks later, he spotted me at the Ringside Pub. My co-worker, Carol Bonetti, had invited me to hear her boyfriend’s band. I had only been there once before and didn’t know any of the locals there. Before long, his eyes were laser-focused on me, the new girl with the long, glossy dark hair who never called.

The bartender placed a Tootsie Roll shot in front of me, nodding toward the man at the end of the bar. “It’s on him.”

At first, I didn’t recognize Steve without his policeman’s uniform. He was dressed in a hunter-green button-down shirt, his chiseled chest teasingly exposed in its top opening, long sleeves pushed up on his forearms. Only his sleek black police haircut gave him away.

He shot me a blatant look in total indifference to the blonde woman who was with him at the time. Men and women couldn’t help but stare at him when he was nearby, as if drawn to his good looks, and he knew it. Mischief gleamed from his eyes.

I drank my shot and bought him the next one. I wanted to learn everything I could about this brazen, exciting man.

“He’s a cop,” Carol said under her breath.

“I know. He pulled me over once.”

“I see him here a lot, sometimes in uniform, sometimes not. As far as I know, he’s unattached and bent on keeping it that way. There’s always a different woman chasing him. My instincts tell me you should probably stay clear of him, but I’m not telling you what to do.”

“You just did.” I smiled.​

Carol scowled, her mahogany curls springing around her face. “He’s the trouble type. Just saying.”

“He’s a type?” I laughed. “I’m a big girl.”

Two things stood out. One, he enjoys the chase and two, he likes to play it tough, so at least he’s not the needy type.

Coupled with my propensity for going after things I’m told to stay clear of, the perfect storm brewed.

I challenged myself to change the trajectory of this man’s dating life by falling back on a tried-and-true method. I threw my hair behind me and turned away from him, engaging Carol in more conversation. I could feel him watching me, but I continued playing hard-to-get, feigning disinterest. As I moved to the ladies’ room, his eyes followed me. When I returned, he had somehow ditched the blonde and was talking to Carol.

I returned to my seat, Carol giving me her look-who-showed-up-while-you-were-gone stare. His words were with Carol, cajoling, and cunning, but his eyes were on me, who I was sure was his real target. Carol was blushing; her earlier opinion of him I could tell was now thrown by the wayside. She giggled so much I wanted to shake her back to her senses. He had her complete attention. Carol, can’t you see what he’s doing? He’s using you to get to me. Remember what you told me?

Steve added more conflict to the game by luring Carol to his side. I’ve always been able to think on my feet. I wasn’t about to stop now.

With clever finesse, I started a dialog with the guy on the other side of me. Alone and nursing a drink, he was staring up at a basketball game being played on one of the televisions overhead. “Who’re you rooting for?” I asked, turning toward him. Two could play at this game. The chase was on.

By the end of the night, while Carol helped her boyfriend’s band pack up, the guy on my left slouched over the bar fully inebriated, thanks to Steve buying him more drinks. The two of us found ourselves alone.

“You’re in no position to drive home,” Steve had said. He was tipsy but in control, a man on a mission, his penetrating blue eyes laser focused and clear.

“Good thing I’m not,” I said. “My friend’s boyfriend is driving.” I glanced over at Carol and the band members disassembling instruments.

Steve’s face fell and my impulsive smile radiated in triumph.

“So, you’re a lawyer,” he said.

What else did he manage to extrapolate from my intoxicated girlfriend? “Did you lose my number?” Steve was not put off.

“Must have misplaced it.”

“Ready to go?” Carol said, her eyes glazed, head swaying.​

I looked at the guy still smashed over the bar. Somehow, I felt a little responsible. “Is there room for one more?”

“No,” Carol said. “Car’s full.”

“Okay. I’ll be right along.” I sighed. “Clearly, this guy needs help,” I said to Steve. “He can’t drive himself home.”

“What’re you getting at?” Steve said.

I ripped a piece of cocktail napkin and wrote on it. “He lives in town. See him home safe, and you can have this.”

“What is it?”

“My phone number.”

And don’t forget . . .